I look and I check. I look and I refresh, over and over again. But there is nothing. There won’t be another email tonight. I was lucky to get the one. No more evenings of back and forth. No more evenings of sitting on the phone laughing.

I used to have interesting things to write. What happened to my intellect? Where did my critical thinking go?

For now instead I sit her and obsess over not hearing from her the way I did. For now I sit in the silence and miss her terribly.