Tonight I am waiting patiently. Last night the waiting of more than 20 years was filled

For more than 20 years I have held a spark for the only woman who has ever made my heart skip a beat. Just recently she found me again. Just last night I drove an hour to see her. The spark was still there and still strong. What we had kept alive separately blossomed beautifully. Being in her arms was the most natural thing in the world.

But to night I am waiting. She’s wrestling her conscience. She is struggling with becoming involved with me first and foremost because I am married. She is also struggling with Maitre presence in my life. I know my lovely M. She has a jealous streak and she stated clearly last night that she didn’t think she could share me. Sadly that is the only option.

So here I sit, waiting, waiting….to find out what she wants to do or not do and its killing me!